February 12, 2009
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Spring comes early in Texas. This afternoon I noticed a tree across the street that has leafed out.
I've been dreading spring, as it's the first marked seasonal change since Don's death on November 29th. Here in North Texas late fall and winter sort of smush together, so the official start of winter didn't signify any real difference of season, but spring...? Spring tends to come all at once.
Three months ago tomorrow was Don's first trip to the doctor, where he was relieved to be told (erroneously) that his troublesome cough and shortness of breath was due to pneumonia.
Having the seasons change like this seems to put such an enormous distance between Don and me. He's not here to see the trees go green, or the draping crepe myrtle he planted a couple of years ago bloom.
I'll be glad when Valentine's Day is over. We never did anything but exchange cards, but oh...! how I loved getting my Valentine's card from him. On Valentine's Day, my birthday, and our anniversary he'd give me a beautiful card and write a message on it that half the time brought me to tears. When the doctor told me he was dying, one of my first thoughts was "no more cards from Don."
BTW, contrary to the gloomy tone of this post, I really am doing much better, with not near as many dismal times, and my general demeanor regaining its normal cheerfulness. Things such as spring coming and Valentine's Day are still hard, though.
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Keep sharing, Mama. Please keep sharing. It's one of the best things in my day when I get to read about your thoughts and what is happening with you. Even if the note is one of sadness or gladness, to know what is happening in the life of my precious mother is as fulfilling as anything else in this world. Love you!
I know it's not the same, but I will send you a little valentine here along with my prayers tonight.
Anne, dearest, I can only guess at how it must be for you without Don, but my goodness, to be blessed with a son like Alexander! What a joy it is to see his tender care for you, even from the other side of the world. I'm sure you're other children are just as loving - Alex's means of demonstrating it are just much more public right now!
Hugs!
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I'm magnificently blessed in my children, no doubt about it. :love:
I've not been on the computer as of late, but my thoughts continue to be with you. When I do get on the computer here is where I often come. I love reading about your family and hoping that you're finding happiness even when it's a gloomy day. Alex's note above is very heartwarming and sweet, what a wonderful son you have (I have no doubt after reading here as long as I have, that all of your children are wonderful).
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